Hello readers .
Its been a while . The last update was in june I guess.
So here's the update that you people are waiting . Thankyou for still being here at my blog and asking me for updates !
So recently ,
Me and miss was my bestfriend decided to end our friendship for 11 years . It was a mutual thing we both agreed on . But I still cried ! *hey i'm still a girl and those 11 years were meaningful long years.
Uhmm actually we had a fight like a huge one . That lasted for almost 2 weeks . Full of dramas and silent treatment .
So one weird thing came across my mind.
In friendship , what matters most ? Looks ? Money ? Or the brain ? Designer items? Etc
Like in movies , popular kids hangs out with the pretty rich kids . So status does matter right ?
In my case , I guess the looks and how someone appearance and how someone talk took the toll .
Being friends for years ,
We decided to share a lot of things .
And give each other special treatments and stuffs .
But this year ,
It was a rough start .
Well just so you know , she's the brainy and popular kid in school . And i'm just a normal kid.
So she found herself a new bestfriend . And she was busy . Totally understand that part.
Then the treatment .
I've been getting like weird and crappy treatments from her . *still forgiving that
And then there was this time ,
Uhm , I had an issue with her new bestfriend.
Then , obviously she choose the new bestfriend instead of me . Her friend for 11 years .
So I was mad and how do I put this in words ? Uhmm . Yeah , disapointed .
Actually , I just felt like I just lost my bestfriend when I got the crappy treatment. Its like a quarter of me is missing .
Its hard enough to even have to look at her giggling with her new bestfriend .
And its hard to not talk to someone who you talk everyday to .
Guess that , its written this way .
Well things happens for a reason right ?
I'm pretty sure its a sign from nature that tells me not to really put a trust on people .
Imagine what used to be 'our' secret is now 'their' secret . Imagine how hurtful that feels .
Now , I'm trying really hard to make me happy again with people with good vibes around me so I don't miss her .
I had to move on , like seriously . I'm the only one missing this friendship . While she's happy .
This friendship is actually broken to so many pieces that I don't think anything could fix it anymore .
So if you're reading this ,
I'm not actually mad . I'm disapointed and tired of getting hurt . The fact that you throw me away like a piece of trash , that shattered my whole spirit .
Its like being betrayed and crushed to pieces.
And this pain ain't going away even with the rain .
Cherish your friends when you still have some .
Lots of love ,
That writer next door .